Ever have one of those days where, from the moment you wake up, you’re just not yourself. Everything seems just a little off. You’re angry but you don’t know why. You don’t enjoy things as much as you usually do. It’s not that you don’t care, you just don’t care today. You know that somewhere in the depths of your subconscious, something has caused this bitch of a day to go tits up, but you don’t have the energy or the interest to figure it out.
Translation: Have you ever had a fucking bad day?
Nothing throws me off more than just an unanticipated, inexplicable bad day. It makes me question why I’m even bothering to do what I’m doing. Like, why am I working here? Why do I even write anything? Why am I working on this? What’s the actual point? It all gets very existential. And to be very frank, some days I kinda feel like giving up is the best option.
Here comes the plot twist: these days are the most important days in my opinion. It’s kind of a Steve Jobs type of situation. If I find I have these days more and more often then I know I need to change something. When things has gotten to the point where I’m fed up, I don’t really care anymore, I’m bored, that’s when I need to regroup and figure out what I need to change. I’m not saying that is by any means an easy thing to do either. It requires MAXIMUM EFFORT. More times than not a bad day goes down as nothing more than a fucking bad day and you just gotta dig in and pull through.
But sometimes, every so often, you can use that bad day to figure out how to stop having bad days. You can find something that gives you a purpose, even if it only lasts a couple of weeks. That’ll give you enough time to change up what you’re doing so that the only bad days you get after that are the self-inflicted hangovers you get after the best nights of your life.
(‘Bad days’ has now lost all meaning to me).