I think this is something I need to address. Not because I’ve been suicidal, because I haven’t been. Thankfully, I’ve been lucky enough to have never had that thought which I’m so grateful for. But I have been around it. My best friend killed himself four years ago so I’m well acquainted with the idea of suicide. Although I’m doing fine now, that aspect of life, the death of a friend, has forever become a part of who I am. It’s weird. At the beginning I was so angry at him for doing it. I thought he was so selfish for giving up, for leaving us all to pick up the pieces. I was wrong though. After a couple of years I realised that I’ve never been in that situation. I’ve never actually felt that killing myself would make things easier. I’ve never wanted to die. And, although I’m so glad I’ve never felt that way, it limits me in understanding how exactly he felt.
I might never understand. Nobody who has never been suicidal will ever understand how that feels and I think we all make the mistake of thinking we can understand it. It is a brain dysfunction. So with that in mind, it is extremely arrogant of us to say someone who committed suicide is ‘selfish’. For all we know, they believe they’re doing everyone else a favour by ending their own life. To me, it seems strange to think someone who killed themselves did it for selfish reasons. They literally sacrifice themselves. I’m not saying it’s the right thing to do, I’ll never accept suicide as a reasonable thing to do. It’s a fact that suicide does more damage than taking one life. It changes everything, forever. It’s permanent and it’s something I hope very few people have to go through or experience.
That’s why I think it’s so important that everyone talks about it. Whether you’ve been depressed, suicidal, or are lucky enough to have never felt that way, it’s still important to talk about it. If giving your opinion on suicide and depression resonates with even one person than it’s so worth giving it. Never stop talking.
Keep in mind though that there’ll always be people who tell you that “You have no idea what you’re talking about” because you haven’t been through what they’ve been through. Accept this as part of it all. That is just their way of dealing with things and it’s totally fine. Some people feel like expressing themselves is the best way to deal with it, some people feel more comfortable not talking about it. However, there are a few that are angered by others talking about an issue that hits so close to home. Everyone deals with things differently, just be aware of it.
I thought it was important to get a few words out about suicide. It’s affected more people I know than I ever thought it would. I’m not claiming to understand why people do it because I don’t.
I just want everyone to keep talking.